I have a need for a need…to quit.  Does that make sense?  I guess more like a need for a reason…to quit.  I’ve decided today to think about it in a strictly pragmatic sense.  Not to overthink all the emotion and play into the cravings or desires, but to make it strictly about the statement, “I can’t drink anymore.”  I’ve spent so much time reading other people’s stories, lamenting about my own and it’s gotten me absolutely  nowhere.  The thing is – no one else can do this for me – so I have to find a way that works…or I’m screwed.  So the statement I make today, is…”I can’t have a drink anymore.”  Now…I have to start to do things differently – if I try to keep my life the same, then nothing will change…and something definitely has to change…today.